Friday, September 18, 2009

A Study In Erotica: 9/18/09

Introduction: A Study In Erotica

I have been thinking about the different things I tend to post here and how they could be considered to be something of a crossection of my interests. There are the articles and self reflections concerning Vampirism as well as BDSM, not to mention the poetry, stories, music, videos and anything else that strikes my fancy. One thing that has been something of a constant though is the fact that with each post I have included an image from my extensive collection. I often find myself looking at an image that I would like to include in a post here and thinking, what can I write that will make this picture an approriate accompaniment to it? Often times though they are images that I cannot find suitable words for without veering into the category of Erotica. And I have nothing at all against Erotica, in fact I personally am a huge fan of it. ;-) I just haven't done much fictional writing in that genre.

And now I suddenly realize I have been going about it all wrong! If I wish to share an image with you, why not let it stand alone for you, the reader, to be able to truly appreciate the full impact of it. A good erotic image needs no explanation. Beauty needs no description. Sensuality needs no crutch of words. And so I present to you the beginning of a new regular segment on This Tainted Soul Of Mine, in which I will allow the art I wish to share with you to speak for itself, as it was originally intended. I do so hope you enjoy them as much as I do. *wicked grins*


Standing in the shadows

I watch your every move

With a wicked grin

Passing across my face

My tongue darts out

To lick my lips

You don’t know me yet

But I guarantee

You’ve never met a girl like me

Emerald eyes shine

As I follow close behind
I can smell your skin

The musk of sweat

The aroma of life itself

Coursing through your veins

You don’t see me yet
But I guarantee

You’ve never met a girl like me

A small hand extends

My fingers caress the air

A mere inch away

I trace your shape from behind
I linger there, getting closer
One hard breath and we would touch

You don’t feel me yet
But I guarantee

You’ve never met a girl like me

My fingers tingle
With the urge to take your arm

Twirl you round

Crush my lips to yours

Until our teeth cut in

And our tongues mingle

Coated in sweetest crimson

You can’t taste me yet

But I guarantee

You’ve never met a girl like me

How I long for you

To touch you, flesh to fingers

My hair spilling down

A soft Auburn caress on your chest

The sheen of sweat gleaming

Consumed by pleasures embrace

Head thrown back in ecstasy

You don’t know me yet

But I guarantee

You’ve never met a girl like me

As you begin to turn

I snatch my hand back
A blush creeps up my face

You look past me searching

I go unnoticed, not even a glance

I duck my head, moving on
Savoring how your arm brushes by mine

I really wish you knew me
But I guarantee

You’ll never meet a girl like me

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Vampiric Abilties: Fact or Fiction

From the newly awakened to the seasoned mentor, most Vampires are fascinated with what abilities they might possibly be able to learn and/or master. For those that are just at the beginning stages of learning, this can be one of the most exciting parts of the process. When I first stumbled across the Vampire Community, I actually didn't believe that Real Vampires existed, despite the fact that I had awakened a little over a decade beforehand. One of the things that kept me progressing in my efforts to learn more was the fact that in continuing to read the words of other's experiences, I began to notice certain similarities between their stories and my own. The largest portion of these similarities lay within the subject of the abilities that they had noticed having. So in keeping with the effort to aid in the furthering of accurate and reliable knowledge within this group, I felt it would perhaps be beneficial to begin this thread as a place to discuss the various abilities that we as Vampires are capable of. I will address a few in the following paragraphs but please come forward to add your own questions and comments on the subject. There is no way I could possibly cover all viable abilities in this one post, but perhaps by discussing some of them it will spark some inner reflection in which you, the reader, will be spurred on to think of others.

First, let's dispel a few myths regarding Vampiric Abilities.

There are two separate varieties that these myths often take form as. First there is the outright fictional type of myths. These are the ones that we could not accomplish by any stretch of the imagination. Such as the ability to change our form to that of a bat or the ability to fly. Real Vampires can do neither unfortunately (though I admit it would be pretty cool if we could). The second type of myth are those that serve as an exaggeration of real abilities. A couple examples of this would be the myth that states that we have "superhuman" strength and speed and could easily outrun a speeding car or even lift a bus as if it weighed nothing. These are the tricky sort of myths because, although we may have slightly quicker reactions or may be stronger then one would expect for someone of our stature, we still remain within the range of human possibility. For instance, we could not lift a car on a whim but much as it has been known that a mother can find the strength to lift a vehicle off of her toddler by the strength of her will and adrenaline alone, many of us are also capable of such feats of strength in the event of an emergency. In a non-emergency situation however, we are only capable of slightly increased strength. Though we cannot outrun a speeding car, we can often at will put on a burst of speed as we run that is slightly faster then one would imagine to be possible. In other words, upon taking notice of our abilities an outside observer might say something like, "Wow...that person is stronger then they look!" or "That person has great reflexes!". However you should not expect to hear anyone refer to you as being "faster then a speeding bullet" anytime soon because if you do, you will surely be disappointed.

So what types of abilities are possible?

There are some that are physical in nature such as having a more sensitive sense of smell, acute hearing or highly developed night vision. These are common. There are also those that are more mental or psychic in nature such as Empathy which, although they not exclusively vampiric abilities, they do occur in higher percentages within the Vampire population then they do within the Mundane (mainstream human) population. Below I will list some of these abilities.

Empathy - the ability to transmit emotions over a distance or experience someone else's emotions as one's own

Telepathy - the ability to transmit thoughts over a distance or read someone's mind

Clairvoyance - the ability to see things that are outside the normal range of perception

Clairaudience - the ability to hear things outside the normal range of perception

Precognition - having knowledge of an event before it occurs by means of extrasensory perception

Astral Projection - the ability to seperate one's soul from their physical body and leave the physical body for a limited time to roam the astral plane or travel to other locations within the physical world and/or interact with other people.

Divination - the ability to foretell future events or reveal truth with unusual insight by means of occult practices such as the reading of tarot cards, tea leaves, crystal balls, astrological charts, numerology, palm reading, etc, etc.

Retrocognition - the ability to see objects or events in the past that one has no way of having had previous knowledge of

Psychokinesis (PK) - the ability to move objects or affect physical processes outside the body through mental effort alone. This is also often referred to as Telekinesis.

Aura reading - learning about people by perceiving the colored aura that surrounds them

Dreamwalking - entering another person's dream while you also are in a unconsious state or calling another into your own dream.

Pyrokinesis (one of several forms of elemental manipulation) - being able to manipulated fire by sheer will of thought.

Saturday, September 12, 2009

Forever His Heart, Mind, Body and Soul

My heart

It screams a battle cry
Not of fear or courage

A cry of triumph

It bursts forth
And rumbles in my throat

The sweetest taste
Of love long lost
Regained once more

And through the halls
Of Valhalla I walk

Nirvana bliss

My Shangri-La

My body

It finds rapture
Entwined within me
Baited breath

Desperate longing

A current of touch
Across my skin
Soft breaths

Beating heart

Tender kiss

His heated gaze

Sets me aflame

With desire

Running rampant
As it courses

Through my veins

My mind

It reels in delight
Dizzy in anticipation

Marveling at thoughts

Taken over

Captured in love

Released from doubt

No longer afraid
To trust freely

No reservations

No fears can take hold

Gratitude fills me

For I know Him

Remember Him

My soul

It takes flight
I find my wings
I soar above all
The poison gone

From my being
The light shines bright
Golden threads

Whole once again


Freedom so pure

Take me higher

I crave Him
This addiction

My true home

He is my…